**CIRCUS**

Friday night a few friends, my cousins, and me up and decided to go to the circus..it was nasty outside with rain and wind but we didn't let that stop us...we grabbed an umbrella and headed out the door!! Of course we went cheap on the tickets and sat at the way top...can't you see the wall behind us... we got there early enough to go down to the floor and enjoy the pre-show to "the greatest show in the world"...the guys on stilts were walking over everyone...they had costume stations set up to where you can put on there outfits...they had face painting and clowns everywhere (i was freakin out...but faced my fear and actually got my pic made with one...but im not posting it..haha)

then the elephants came out...

amanda and me in our crowns ready for the show to start!! :))

and off it goes...

of course we enjoyed some popcorn, lemonade, and can't forget cotton candy!! there were lots more things to take pictures of but since I was using my ghetto phone and we were soo far up this is about all I got... so I apologize for the quality of these pics!

now this was my favorite part...putting seven motorcyclists in a round cage and they just went at it...driving all around the cage...let me just say I found my dream job!! I could so do that.. :))

Great night with great company!!! Loved the circus!!! I will go back when it's in our town again..might start a circus fund so we can get better seats next time!!

"Photo Album" :)

*Breanna and me*

*linds megs and me*

*my trina*

* megs kk ramie beth and sarah*

* us at the melting pot waiting on our chocolate fondue*

* it's trina again* :) go check out her blog www.xoxotrina.com

*my two favorite peeps..love them!!*




*trina breanna and me @ dave barnes!!*

*ramie and me*

A Day At The Park!!

So this past Sunday I went with my aunt and uncle and cousins to a place called palisades park in a small town nearby! It was a great fall day to enjoy outside and be on top of a mountain overlooking the city! My cousins and I played on the playground like we were 5 again, we had so much fun!!

*amanda and me*

*my cute cousin Ryan*

*us with our Indian friend*

*my lil ryland*

After our afternoon at the park we grabbed a bite to eat and then headed over to a church that was having a "Trunk or Treat". We walked around and let the little ones play games and get candy, and as were walking guess who I spotted...Mr. Michael Jackson himself...there was a boy dressed up as MJ and i just had to get my picture taken with him!! haha!! go ahead laugh... :)


We then headed home and ended our adventurous day!!

mY gIrLs!!!

So I must say I have the best group of friends/sisters ever!!!!! Everyone of them has touched my life in some way and I think I would be lost without all of them!!! Love yall!!!!

Where have I been??

For some reason the question "Where have I been?" has been stuck in my head today...the past two days I have listened to nothing but sermon after sermon on podcast and off a church's website, and let me tell you they have completely rocked my world!!! I've listened to so many that I couldn't tell you what i've listened to and normally I would think that isn't a good thing because you would get overloaded with all you've heard but in this case i believe it's not....it has been exactly what I have needed to hear and it has opened my eyes to somethings and made me realize where i'm at. So i'm going to try and jump in and explain...forgive me if it makes no sense and if i'm all over the place...i'm just taking things out of my head and typing them (thats a scary thing i know)!!

Over the past two months (maybe not even that long...it all happened so fast) ALOT has gone on in my life, ALOT of change and ALOT of tears. It's been good and bad!! I have felt not loved at times and I have felt very loved at times, weird I know! Few things that has been going...well there has been alot go on in my family and I tend to put myself in the middle of it all and carry those burdens and beat myself up over it and when in all reality it's NOTHING I can control or even handle, but for some reason I like to think i'm superwoman and can fix it all....(bahaha yeah right). Another thing is I now reside in a completly different city, house, and with different people (person) than I did a month ago. It was a hard thing to process at first because it was so abrupt but things happen and the Lord was already preparing me a place and I had no idea...(side note, i'm learning and seeing how the Lord really has our best interest in mind and always is looking out for us, even when we think he has left us out to dry) With this abrupt move, alot of hurt feelings or wounds, I guess you could say, were created and even resurfaced. In all this I honestly kind of got depressed on the inside and just started giving up and being very negative about everything, but of course tried to cover it up on the outside and pretend nothing was wrong and I was just loving Jesus (not sure how well that worked, so SORRY for anyone that has been around me and I have been down and out or always negative!! and of course never stopped loving Jesus but def. had some beef with him...) It's been a tough time to walk through but I can now say thank you Jesus for putting me through it, it has made me stronger and more reliable on him and not myself!! I have learned that yes the Lord gives you more than you can handle and yes he allows things to happen BUT he never leaves you alone through those things, he is always there hoping you give the things back to him and lean on him and use his strength and not yours, bc our strength is very weak and will get us no where but deeper in the hole but his strength is mighty and will pick us up out of the hole in a split second!! I'm learning to change my attitude no matter the situation, my attitude effects everything, if I choose to trust the Lord and no matter what remain positive, things will be alot easier then if I choose to be negative and stress out and get all worked up!! It's just funny how the littlest of things sometimes is what makes the biggest impact in a situation.

This morning I have been asking the Lord to rekindle my flame, awaken my heart!! I want him to give me a desire for him like never before, take me back to my first love!! I want a renewed passion for worship, prayer and purity!! I dont want to settle ANY longer for things I know arent right or thoughts I know I shouldnt have or things I say that I know I shouldnt!! No more settling and thinkin thats just who I am. No mam, I am a daughter of the most high God and he has called me to live a life set apart for him and to strive to be like him!! I was made in his image so i've got to get back to the basics and live like it!!!! Yeah i'll mess up, I'm not saying I wont but what I am saying is that I am going to try my best to not mess up!! I have gotten way to comfortable in different areas and its time to take it up a notch and get a lil uncomfortable in my ways!!! It won't be easy but I sure know that my God will be beside me the whole way and will give me his strength to keep going and NEVER give up!!! His grace and mercy are never ending and I don't always understand it but I sure am thankful for it!! I want to continue to learn about this amazing Jesus and fall for him more and more each day!!! Jesus make me teachable, moldable, and unshakeable....!!!!!

Again, sorry if this is all of the place or makes no sense, I just wanted to get it out!! :))

"jUsT sOmE pIcS"

"VISION"

The Vision

The vision is JESUS – obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.
The vision is an army of young people. You see bones? I see an army. And they are FREE from materialism. They laugh at 9-5 little prisons. They could eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday. They wouldn't even notice. They know the meaning of the Matrix, the way the west was won. They are mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations. They need no passport.. People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence. They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying.

What is the vision?

The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes. It makes children laugh and adults angry. It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars. It scorns the good and strains for the best. It is dangerously pure. Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation. It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games. This is an army that will lay down its life for the cause. A million times a day its soldiers choose to loose that they might one day win the great 'Well done' of faithful sons and daughters. Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night. They don't need fame from names. Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again: "COME ON!"And this is the sound of the underground. The whisper of history in the making Foundations shaking Revolutionaries dreaming once again Mystery is scheming in whispers Conspiracy is breathing…This is the sound of the underground And the army is discipl(in)ed. Young people who beat their bodies into submission. Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms. The tattoo on their back boasts "for me to live is Christ and to die is gain". Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes. Winners. Martyrs. Who can stop them ? Can hormones hold them back? Can failure succeed? Can fear scare them or death kill them?And the generation prays like a dying man with groans beyond talking,with warrior cries, sulphuric tears and with great barrow loads of laughter! Waiting. Watching: 24 – 7 – 365. Whatever it takes they will give: Breaking the rules. Shaking mediocrity from its cozy little hide. Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs, laughing at labels, fasting essentials. The advertisers cannot mold them. Hollywood cannot hold them. Peer-pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries. They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive inside. On the outside? They hardly care. They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide. Would they surrender their image or their popularity? They would lay down their very lives - swap seats with the man on death row -guilty as hell. A throne for an electric chair. With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days, pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them. Their DNA chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.) Their subconscious sings. They had a blood transfusion with Jesus. Their words make demons scream in shopping centres. Don't you hear them coming? Herald the weirdo's! Summon the losers and the freaks. Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes. They walk tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow, mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension. Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of Eden. And this vision will be. It will come to pass; it will come easily; it will come soon. How do I know? Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very dream of God. My tomorrow is his today. My distant hope is his 3D. And my feeble, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking great 'Amen!' from countless angels, from hero's of the faith, from Christ himself. And he is the original dreamer, the ultimate winner. Guaranteed.